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Yayy! so my coldsore is all better and its fully healed. I just have a stupid mark on my lip now. but whatever. i can still cover it up with my lipstick :D 
Teehee!
Anyways, exams are in a week’s time & im mugging my nights away like a crazy nerd girl.

& the most dreaded time of the year has arrived again. Every year, around June, for some fucking reason, I get a fucking cold sore on my lip. Each time, its on a different part of my lip. Seriously, WHY ?! 

I really hope this one isn’t as bad as the last, and i really hope it disappears after a week. Cos i really really cant afford to have this shit on my lip for more than a week. Im annoyed. angry. frustrated and embarrassed. 

Something just isn’t right in my life. Im wondering. Having second thoughts about my future. Do i really want to have a desk job - be a PR practitioner, work in the media industry. Maybe I made the choices that I made because I wanted to follow in my sisters’ footsteps, maybe I took media and comms because I wanted to have a fair chance to show my mom that I could do as well as sis? I don’t know. 
But now, all i can think about is how I’m going to live the rest of my life doing something I have absolutely no freaking interest in. Yes, I’m good at what I do. Yes, I am doing well in school. But i don’t want to be a PR practitioner. 

I feel a void. 

I’ve always been someone who cares. I’ve always known that I like helping people. I like the satisfaction of being able to help someone cross an obstacle in their life. I like giving advice to those who are lost. Im just a simple, caring girl. I was thinking of becoming a social worker. But… YES! A BIG FAT BUT! 

I need a freaking degree in social work to work as a social worker. (try saying that super fast).

I can’t afford to lose another 3 more years of my life doing a totally new degree. i feel so  ”purposeless” in life. honestly. 

When am I going to figure out what I want to do? :|

p.s: It’s been 2 weeks since I quit smoking. :)

Semester 1/2012 is almost over. There’s about 3 more weeks left for uni classes and Final exams are on the 8th of June. & with this semester ending, I can proudly say that I have only another 2 more semesters before I graduate with a degree in Communications and Media studies  with a double major in Public Relations :) 

That sounds pretttyyy good huh ? (:

Everything has been going super well lately. & I’ve got some exciting news to share.

I’ve FINALLY quit smoking. YES. it’s been 4 days since i’ve touched a cigarette. Im planning to make it through 2 whole weeks before I actually celebrate (: 

Alot is changing in 2012. who knew i’d grow up so much. 

ahh, the perks of turning 23

Theres been so many things that have been happening and i’m feeling so lost and sad about it. I can’t believe people like that are still around. The people who I thought were my friends were actually just talking shit about me all this time and when I don’t do anything wrong I get blamed for it?! like seriously. 

I know I should be used to people talking shit by now. ive been hearing it since i was like 15. but i don’t get why my skin is still not thick. It just makes me sad that Im all the way here in Perth and the people that i can trust are in Singapore. All the more I can’t wait to finish up and head home. 

Theres another like 50+ days left before I go home for a month and I really cant wait. Theres so much of fucking drama here, and I don’t wanna handle it. I stay outta your way, so you should stay outta mine as well. I don’t see how spreading lies and rumours gets anyone anywhere. I really can’t be bothered anymore, but it still hurts to think that I once trusted these people. 

On a happier note i only have like 2 semesters left. and Im gonna bring back most of my stuff to singapore so that I’ll have lesser things to pack once october comes. It’ll way way easier for me. and I don’t need to rely on anyone to help me. I’ll just go ahead and get a storage space to put my stuff in for 3 months. 

sigh. its sad that this kinda shit has to happen.

So my baby is FINALLY back in singapore. & I FINALLY got to see his face after two god-damn long weeks. :D I was so so so happy when he came on skype. Webcammed with him for about 40 mins or so :) 

So anyways, uni is still being a bitch, and I can’t wait to go back in June. The flight tickets have been booked for h 16th of June so hopefully i’ll have ample time to pack, and do all those pre-flight stuff.

Oh wells, hopefully time flies. I’ve got about 10 weeks left here in Perth before this semester ends, and I’ll be left with another 2 more semesters before I finish my degree and become a Graduate :D